Happy-Go-Lucky!

More often than not, we go through life, day-to-day not unaware of the things going on around us, but preoccupied being happy, to see how blessed we really are.
And for all the negative things I could label myself or my current situations in life, with careers, friendships, etc. I am often reminded, that I am really very lucky. I have a husband, who loves me, and I mean come on, he aint ugly either! ;)
We have one amazing son, who is just that - AMAZING! he is healthy, he is happy, we are so lucky!
We have so many people, family - friends, who love us.
We are both heatlthy ( if you subtract my over eating habits)
at any rate..

Yea! Happy! Lucky! It is my life!

But believe me - I dont always see the roses, sometimes, like most humans, I forget to see whats right in front of me!

But this week?
oh man - I see it alright. and it aint ugly either!!

my elephant and puppy

catching some shishies

not as comfortable as it looks



daddy got a fish



"sickles"

watter

I can still see you!!

oh and dont forget the...

Fathers Day

We are so lucky to have so many people in our lives, who love us, who care about us, who would give the sweater off their back for us, We are so lucky! So many father figures, who dont have to be blood to have my whole heart. These men, raised me, taught me, or. Are men I have only known for a matter of years, yet feel so very close to, and wouldnt change our relationship for the WORLD!

I am also truly blessed to have the BEST father for my son, that I would have ever even thought to ask for.
Keith is such a patient, kind and loving father to our son.
And it shows - our son is a mini-daddy and trys to do everything like his daddy, and when I told him he could pick out ANY card for his daddy his eyes lit up in the hallmark aisle. When I told him he could pick out ANY cake, and write ANYTHING he wanted to on it, his chest grew with pride, knowing that his daddy was getting what HE wanted him to get.

It is so great, raising children. You fall in love, you make a baby, and grow it in your belly for 9 months, feeling so much love and life, then you give birth, and think - okay life could not get any better than holding this tiny human in my arms, being his only means of life. But then, life keeps getting better, he grows up, he walks, he talks, he speaks in sentences. And really - it has only jsut begun..

So, thank you Keith, you are such a good man, we have grown so much together, and again, really - it has only just begun.

You are such a good father, and cannot wait to see what kind of man our son turns into!

I LOVE YOU!!

and a few pictures from our fathers day!

austin shaves now - what? you didnt know that?

sitting like daddy

eating popsicle

whoa! big fish!

3 shishes

arent they so cute?

Leaning in

I'd like to see myself as an active member of humanity, not in the I'm-gonna-win-a-noble-peice-prize sort of ways,but I feel connected to nature, to the splendor of God's earth, and to all his creation. I feel a basic human need to be loved, to be protected and feel safe. I pride myself on being my own person, which makes me a beautiful part of America, which is a pride to be apart of.

And in being, me, and in being, you we all are connected, in a really beautiful way.
We may have anything in common, we may even have clashing personalites, however,
our differences, make us the same.

And after our differences, and learning what equality really means, acceptance, and love for other humans - we must remember to love ourselves, and in being a part of such a beautiful thing - life, really.
We have to know who we are, stand firm in that knowledge, and remain strong, or learn to be, so we can handle what comes, be prepared for the " better or worse, richer or poorer" parts of life we all must do so.

I for one, fall into a peacful ebb and flow.
On the one hand, I love to be active, loud, extravagent, on the other I like to stay in, wear pjs, and watch a movie.

When life changing things come, like having a baby, moving, getting a new job I go through a process
of fear - of the unknown
sadness- of feeling like I am leaving something great behind
However, I also feel excitement, and enegry for what my future holds.

On days like today, when I am inching closer to my new job, where I will no longer get to be with Austin 24/7, when I make plans that go to hell, or when things just dont go my way.
I lean in. I pull myself in. I find myself thinking..

Change is fun, but lets be honest - its scary too.
I balance the pros and cons, but really those all dont matter - because the change is inevitable.

SO.

I am changing, I am now an actibe member of the work force, I am no longer a stay at home mom. Its really bitter- sweet.

Today I am nervous, and hopeful!
Today I love my family, and just want to make sure they know, how much they really mean to me.
I can get preachy or wordy at times, so
since most of my readers are the people whom I care most for - I love you! You are an important part of my life, and I couldnt see it living it the same without you in it.
Just thought you should know!

Much love,