Of course, I have these family fantasies involving family dinners, and BBQs, and trips to the ocean, and basically everything, everywhere is family family family.
bottom line? I love my family! I love being a mommy, and being the matriarch of my own family, carving these wonderful memories, and traditions..
Today we took Austin sledding
|he loves snow|
|daddy trying to show Austin that its FUN!|
So me, being the special sort of mother I was, whispered " go for it"
so he did..
|notice the whiney face|
But much like Daddy expected - Austin loved and adored it.. and they went at least a dozen more times..
Being a mother has showed me amoug many things, that it is possible to know someone more than you even know yourself. That you can be so intune with another human being that you feel comfortable sending him on a sled down a hill towards a frozen lake because you KNOW that he will love it, once he takes the leap.
I also know how he likes his eggs, what shirt is his favorite, and what bear he HAS to sleep with every night. Or there will be problems..
Thats being a mother, and thats my most favorite thing about being a mother! Not putting a person first because you feel like you have to, but loving this little person so much that it happens automatically, that every choice you make is not for yourself first, but for them.
Of course, I fail, I dont always be the best I want to be, sometimes Im soo tired I put little effort into reading a story, and sometimes pjs dont match.
But the joy of being a mommy, is learning who you are too, not just your little.
I have learned more about myself, in the past three years than I ever did in the other twenty.
Even in the past three years, I am a totally changed and different person. And I have my children to thank for that.
They taught me how to love, how to care, and grow up!
And I love them for that, and in every moment I feel not good enough, there are a million other moments where I feel like the world's kickassy-est mother out there. Im just saying..
anyhoo, I babble when Im emotional, and my baby is turning three, not to mention I have a daughter growing inside me, and her growing kicks and punches are a reminder of just how lucky I really am..
|(he was saying cheese)|